The other morning I (Tracey) found myself having a conversation with Adalynn over breakfast about all of the changes about to happen in our family. The conversation went something like this:
Me: “Adalynn, did you know that you are going to have a baby sister soon?”
Adalynn: “ poon” (spoon) as she shows me her spoon
Me: “Did you also know that we are going to move out of our house soon?”
Adalynn: “poon”
Me: “We are going to have to get rid of a lot of our things and we are going to move onto a big boat and help people in Africa who are sick”
Adalynn: “Ma pees” (More please)
So, I realized, I think I was actually having a conversation with myself, trying to convince myself of all that is to come. At 17 months, Adalynn really has no clue about what is about to happen to her little world. I worry sometimes about how she will deal with all the transition but then I realized that she is so happy and content living in the present moment and has no worries at all about these next few months. It really made me step back and assess my thoughts at this moment in the process. We have been looking ahead to these next few months of change with excitement but we have also had many moments of stress and fear as we wonder how we can possibly get through all the challenges of adding a new baby, selling our possessions, raising support and moving.
My “conversation” with Adalynn that morning reminded me that I need to focus on today and take one step at a time in this process. The Lord has been so faithful in bringing us to this point and we need to trust him that he will continue to lead us step by step. Instead of being surprised by how God continues to provide, we need to trust and know that he will carry us through every step.
